After all the exams I dreaded about ended, now, I am back to my hometown while waiting for the results. What a journey it has been since I came back after 10 months life-changing stay in abroad. Joined for a work, met lots of new people, joined classes for my Malaysian Bar Examination aka CLP - Certificate in Legal Practise, and now done with the exams. To talk about the stress, it was whole different level. Unexpected but managable as usual. Meeting new people of course have its pros and cons. As I would always say there are only two things to learn about people, one is on how to be and one is how to not/never to be. So the people I met so far, had the mixture of both as you know being human is all about the transition period where you are neither an angel nor a devil.
Breakup with a bff, losing the heart to someone who have no intention on giving his to me, sitting for world's toughest exam, emotional turbulence, and all these in 9 months and I am still alive. WOW. I need a pat on my back. Now, all that I want to do is to binge read books, sleep as much as I want, and focus on making myself fit. TIME FOR MYSELF. For all the sacrificed sleep, silent cries of the heart, crippling loneliness that I am still learning to overcome, I need some ME time.
Growing up, I dont know but it is nothing like what I imagined it will be, isn't it all our complaints huh the 90s babies. The electronic age biting our arses while we are still burdened with the love of the non-electronic era of good time as well. I tend to think too much of communication without having to speak to know the tone, resonance, or without getting to see the demeanour and all are just leading miscommunication.
However, are we even left with a choice to not grow up? Of course no. So we gotta battle and find our way through. To find the light that gonna keep the cave of the heart and soul bright. To love unconditionally, to live happily, and to take care of mother earth.
No matter what happens, life goes on, Raise the WINE GLASS mofos! CHEERS
