Tired..

I am tired, not physically but emotionally. I am torn so severely. Too much of things raping my mind every now and then. I dont even know where to start..its just a lot. But I know I will manage because thats me. When it comes to LOVE, even the strongest ones go weak. Hey I am not talking about the love where two young people are involved. The Love I am talking about is the elementary ones. The one you yearn from your parents, siblings and friends. I am so glad that I am gifted with loving people around me but then sometimes all this loving people can cause severe pain too because to much of expectation from my side. I am slowly learning to expect less or even better no expectation. I am a favourite of many but I am the least favourite among their favourites. I know this very well. As for me, I am not close with everyone but if I am, I give them the same importance to them as everyone else. And again my family deserves a special position in my heart, higher and above all my friends. Rejection or fear of rejection is nothing new for me. But the pain of going through it still the same. Well, I fought with mom today -_-... I dont want to rant about the other stuffs that going through my mind. Anyways, all will be well...I hope.