USELESS

I am really feeling shitty about myself. If I analyse myself properly, I am good at nothing. This makes my heart to ache. I always had passion for music, sadly the place where I grow up and still living in have nothing, there are no classes for anything. I have no any special talents other than talking. I may be sharp in many sense but i don't have a specific talent. I am just a singer to my own self. I didn't have chance to do anything when I was young rather than playing with my brother. I can't sing in the proper way that trained people sing, I cant drive, I don't know to play any music instruments, I can't dance, I can't draw nicely. The list of things that I cant do is more than what I can do.I cant even drive, a simple task performed by many due to some not explainable fear :(

Just now, I was talking to my friend and he is all fun and jovial type. The minute I heard him playing sitar, I was just burning in jealousy flame. I never had chance to learn anything! I want to learn now but is it even possible? I don't know. He learnt at the age of 8 and now I am 20. Musical instruments usually will be learnt from young age. OMG :'( I seriously wanna play some instrument but my preference is Sitar. I have a liking for piano too. I am just OLD. Yes OLD. Even if I wanna learn now, money is a big question. I cant depend on my dad. May be Music is only for rich people's kids. Damn...this is so unfair..