STRONG

Having a wide smile, and jovial character helping me very much to stay strong even blow after blows to my heart. Everything started when my earring got lost, correction-stolen. I think the earring was my lucky charm, now everything seems so jinxed. After that unfortunate incident, my beloved baby, Manickam, being my loyal companion for 1 and half year died in the most tragic way. I cant even find words to describe my state. I saw him dying by suffering right in front of my eyes. I was so helpless, all I could was to cry. I called the vet, my dad and everybody but he cant be saved. He was forming bubbles kinda saliva in his mouth excessively, shaked so much that it could be heard so loudly. Finally he died before urinating in his position. All I could do was sit by his side and cry. A fellow, I love so much, died right in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything. I patted his head and told him "Manickam, akka love you so much". The lights in his eyes faded and then it was gone. This was the first time, a soul is dying in front of me. It was too painful to take. I wonder what kind of human can do this to a poor dog. He cant even be human. A satan in human mask.

He died on 17th July and 18 my results were coming out. I was so confident that I would be able to pass all as I put my efforts all and this is nothing compared to STPM that was much more freaking hard. Little I did think about hypocrites, backstabber, cheaters and greedy people. I assumed wrongly that there will be no unfair situations which I faced a lot during my public exams. Tadaaa! I was wrong. This greedy people of my college failed me in 2 papers which I was very confident about in the mark of 38 (the passing mark is 40) and they increased the resit payment from rm150 to rm350. The beauty in this is they failed 90% of us in at least a subject. Most probably they are sucking money from us to recover from the expenses they spent for the new building I assume. But what they did was very wrong, and the worst part is we cant question them. But then, bitches there is something called karma. I will grab my popcorn, sit back and enjoy the show when it is your turn.

After all these unwanted incidents, I am being normal as it is my only option. Having positive vibes when you lose someone dear to you is not easy, but I am definitely trying. I wonder sometimes, why everything happens to me but then again I console myself that everything happens for a reason. I prayed and asked for guidance and strength to face all these. Hopefully, HE heard me. I am just slightly tired. But I am still strong. I got no choice but to be strong. I am aint a failure or a loser. I will come back stronger and will make you to regret. And now I have to face the book and put pen to the paper and practise myself!